i got an A in malikhaing pagsulat: tula!

under mike coroza!

waaah! wala lang. im so happy. heheh.
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my grades in hi166 and eco111 weren't bad too. hay. salamat po, papa jesus.
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watched big fish and a french movie, taxi 3, yesterday. nice nice.
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it was blooey's first birthday yesterday. we had a GA in los otros. ang nice nung place. astig.

ang pinaka-astig sa lahat, me nagsabi saking kamukha ko daw si camile velasco. odibah! hahaha. sabog yata yun eh, o di pa niya nakikita si camile.

dearest, after i've done everything that i have to do for the day, i think of you. i wonder if you think of me too. you don't realize it, but you hold me captive. i guess what im trying to say, it's not everyday that someone like you comes my way. although i can go on living my life without you in it, i can't just forget you. on nights like this, i think of you.

parang isang episode ng extra challenge ang paguwi namin sa pampanga kanina. namatay si tata saro. kapatid ng lolo ko. isinama kami ni tita (ako, si bebe, rodney, marian, at bea), experience daw ito kasi "we are going to the poorest of the poor" na mga kamaganak namin.

experience talaga. sumakay kami sa honda, tumawid ng tulay, lumusong sa baha ng ilog ng masantol, sumakay ng bangka papuntang sta. cruz, tumawid ng pilapil, at lumanghap ng malinis na hangin sa may palaisdaan.

hindi nag-exaggerate si tita nung sabihin niyang pinakamahirap sa mahirap ang pupuntahan namin. binaha ang burol ni tata saro. burak ang nakapaligid sa bahay nila. pero astig pala ang lolo ko, war veteran pala siya. cool. andami kong gustong ikwento tungkol sa kanya, pero hindi ata deserving na maging side story lang siya. sa susunod, kukuwentuhan kita.

ang hirap pumunta don, extra challenge talaga. pero ni minsan hindi ko mahanap sa puso ko na magreklamo. hindi ko nga alam kung mali ba na parang isang adventure para sakin yun, naaliw ako. nakakalungkot isipin na kung para sakin parang field trip, sila araw-araw ng buhay nila, ganun.

pero astig talaga. experience talaga. sarap sumakay ng honda.. hindi kotse yun, pedicab na nasa harap ang bike. at astig tumawid ng pilapil, lalo pa ang damhin ang pinakamalinis na simoy ng hangin sa may palaisdaan.

minsan iniisip ko, simple man ang buhay sa probinsiya, mababaw lang rin ang kaligayahan don. minsan parang inaakit ako.

marami pa akong gustong sabihin, pero pagod na ko. mas malakas ang pang-akit ng kama. hehe.

Nagyaya si nene ng lutu-lutuan
Sa nagbibinata niyang pinsan.

“Ayoko non, pambata.
Papayag ako kung iba.”

Naghanap ang pinsan ng panyo
Mata ni nene ay piniringan
At saka itinuro
Ang larong naibigan.

“Kuya, ito ba?
Parang isda!
Ay, dumudura!”

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im so bored. im bestfriends withy my bed and tv as of the moment.

grissom: truth brings closure.

catherine: not always.

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csi season two, episode 202: chaos theory.

i didn't see you today. i was really looking forward to seeing you.

kahit five seconds lang. kahit glimpse lang. kahit likod mo lang. maski siguro anino mo, papatulan ko na.

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hindi na ako aasa. bahala na lang kung kailan kita makita o makausap. mas madali pag ganon.

ako rin ang makulit. sabi na ngang without hope or agenda, i will love you eh.

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sabi sa ph101 dati:

kapag nasabi na ang lahat ng masasabi, yung pinakamahalaga, di na masasabi. hindi na kayang sabihin, basta nararamdaman na lang.

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at sabi rin ni levinas, kung ano lang ang gustong ipakita sayo ng kaiba, yun lang ang makikita mo. sabi rin ni mr. cruz, puede mong mahalin, pero di mo puedeng kontrolin. di mo puedeng pilitin.

one can only wait. sabi ko.

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as for my broken heart, i know it will heal pretty soon.

happy happy joy joy!

stayed in school til around four today. my clas ended at 1230. saw sir jope on the way to meet elga and aisa in the lib steps.

j: miss cathy, nakasimangot ka yata ah.

c: heh!

anlabo ng sagot ko. hahaha. labo naman kasi, lumilitaw na lang bigla in the sea of people na dumadaan sa ctc to faura to socsci path. eh sa nagulat ako, anong magagawa ko. hehehe.

hay. jologs talaga ako.

anyhoo, had fun hanging out with aisa. nagsasanay na kaming maging stalker. muahahaha!

dahil tabulas ko to at nakikibasa ka lang, wala kang magagawa kung ano pa ang isulat ko. e sa gusto kong magpakilala, aangal ka?

eto na, wag ka nang umapela pa.

si cathy:

hindi kumakain ng seafood. pero maraming alagang isda.
love na love makakuha ng snailmail, fedex, o kahit na jrs express pa. basta dala ng kartero at hindi electronic, winner!
stubborn at mahilig makipagtalo.
me libre kang kiss pag binigyan mo siya ng chocolate eclair ng starbucks.
marami nang naloko at napaniwala na ang totoong kulay ng buhok ko ay brown/blonde/auburn/chestnut/dark red.
has great stalker skills. puede na akong maging private eye.
mabusisi ng sobra. mahirap manchiks pag ako ang gelpren mo. puede nang maging CSI. walang kokontra, pangarap ko yun.
mahilig magbake.. ng mga just add water and egg. heheh. marami na ring napeke na magaling akong magbake. muahahaha.
takot sa mga ipis na lumilipad.
pinapawisan ang ilong pag mainet. sabi ng kuya ko, selosa daw pag ganun.
minsan pa-girl, minsan bohemian, minsan sporty, minsan beach bum. interesado sa maraming bagay, minsan opposite poles pa. medyo malabo pero para mas maganda pakinggan, eclectic.
nagsusumikap na maging makata.
hindi umaatras sa dare. wag lang yung nakakamatay.
kung baga sa crush, siya yung tipo ng babaeng hindi mo mapapansin sa una. pero patay ka pag napaibig ka. mahirap nang makawala.
magaling din mambola. muahaha!

wag nang umangal. wala ka rin namang magagawa kundi mag-comment.

ocia cia, hanggang sa susunod. magdagdag ka na lang kung me maisip ka.

may sariling lohika ang puso na minsan ay hindi tugma sa sinasabi ng isip.

wagas na pagmamahal ang magpatuloy sa pagmamahal sa tao kahit na tila hindi maapuhap ang halaga ng minamahal.

at ang star for all seasons:

wagas ang pag-ibig ng taong naghihintay sa pagtalima ng taong iniibig sa sarili nitong panahon.

galing ni sir Jope. in my book, winner talaga.

im really bummed. i have to get my mind off certain things that bug me.

i wanna go out tonight, fete de la musique in eastwood sounds great but i bet parking will be hell so unless someone else is bringing a car, im not going.

paulo would definitely be out of the question, since he refuses to communicate with me as of the moment, and who knows till when?

so for anyone who's free tonight, coffee tayo. my treat. text me.

babuh.

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and yes, i know you think im a loser with no friends, but fuck off! i've had enough shit today.

been to the hairsalon twice since yesterday. i just didn't feel like going home because i know that once i'm alone, i'll be weak again.

this is the first time i have ever felt real loss. it's the first time i have ever left someone i still love. and im just about a tear away from asking him back. my only fear is that if i do, i'll hurt him even more.

aisa said that when you choose to do something that you do not want to do but you feel that it's the right thing to do, it's a sign of growth. im not sure though if in my part, it's selfishness rather than growth.

i wonder how he is. i hope he's doing fine. i hope he doesn't hate me.

i know i said that if we really break up, i won't write about him here anymore. but you see, it's hard not to when he's all i think about.

sabi sa isang CSI episode:

if you chase two rabbits, you end up losing both.

i think i did.

im a loser baby, so why don't you kill me?

ako rin talaga ang makulit. alam ko na ngang di dapat umuuwi at nag-iisa dahil hindi maiiwasan ang mag-isip. di na natuto. hay.

i had an interesting afternoon. shempre. wish it lasted all day, wished things we're different, wish i didn't have this baggage... so i won't be feeling lonely and depressed like now.

i wonder how paulo is doing. i hope he's doing better than i am.

:'c

i miss my mahalski. i want to ask him back but i know that if i do, i'll hurt him even more.

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gusto kong mag-JVP next year. seryoso.

para sa mga nagtatanong kung bakit, para sa hindi alam kung bakit. para kay paulo mercado, na sana'y maintindihan ako kung bakit.

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All that I ask for
Is one little corner
One private room
At the back of my heart
Tell him I found one
He sends out battalions
To claim it and blow it apart.
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It's not about another shrink
It's not about another compromise
I'm not the only one who's hurting here
I don't know what the hell is left to do
You never saw how far the crack had opened
You never knew I had run out of rope and

I could never rescue you
All you ever wanted
But I could never rescue you
No matter how I tried
All I could do was love you hard
And let you go.

No matter how I tried
All I could do was love you
God, I loved you so.
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enough cathy. enough.

rax and me in coffeheads yesterday..







sabi nang ayoko ng saydbyu eh! hehehe.






she happily clicked away and we posed and projected as if nobody else was there. hehehe. fun fun.


shalamats rache! hindi lang sa pics pero more importantly sa mga bonding moments.

buhok pa lang, sakto na.

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I have a smile stretched from ear to ear
To see you walking down the road
We meet at the lights, I stare for a while
The world around us disappears

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masaya na ako. steady lang, pero masaya. sana kayo rin lahat.

hindi ako natuwa sa spiderman. ewan ko kung epekto lang yun ng pagka-umay sa siopao pero.. wala, olats talaga.

puro lesson, puro cliche. at ang ending, haruuu! nagka-change of heart si dr. octopus. odevah.

hay. meron pang tumataginting na scene ni peter parker at ng lolo niya na parang kukunin na ni lolo si peter at isasama sa kabilang buhay. ang liwanag ng buong paligid, feeling ko nasa langit na. ahehehe.

a basta. hindi ako masyadong natuwa.

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hinatid ko si nikki sa school niya kahapon. haynaku! namiss ko na un babaeng un. we got to catch up on the way to UP. she was shocked and happy na ren at the same time for me. before she went down, true to my bezybudy's nature, she grabbed my fone and took a picture.



ay, ang laki ng chan ko. ang pumansin me libreng sapak sakin. heheh.

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at sa gustong makakita ng hilites ko, eto na.. naks.




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last na.

hoi NKD913 namimiss na kita!