philo midterm orals ko kanina! as usual, sabog pa rin. weh, what's new.

pero ang bago, habang namamatay na ako sa pagka-cram ng sandamakmak na info tungkol sa M na M (meron na meron), paglingon ko sa may hagdanan eh nandun siya.
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c: anong ginagawa mo dito?

j: moral support ba..

c: tapos na class mo?

j: oo.

c: huwag ka na dito.. lalo akong kinakabahan.

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huwaw. how suwit. moral support daw oh. heheh. wala. kinikilig ako. yaiks. parang bata. heheh.

inggit ka lang.

whataday today.

la kasi kaming pasok ni jope dahil sa ls service awards, nagpasama siyang ipaayos si blackie sa may caltex after lunch. pagtapos nun eh pumunta kaming riverbanks para magpapalit ng dibidi. e tapos wala na kaming pupuntahan ang aga-aga pa. etong boyps ko, nagka-bright idea!

ayun, iniwan namin si blackie sa ateneo at sumakay kami ng LRT at pumuntang gateway! wowee. matagal na kasi naming pinaplanong sumakay ng LRT, bonus na lang ang gateway. apter naming mag-ikot eh kumain kami sa taco bell. yummy burrito. hanggang ngayon amoy burrito pa rin ang burp ko. ahehehe.

on the way back to katipunan, kaching! me panibago na naman siyang bright idea! ukay-ukay sa anonas! yahooo. four floors of ukay stuff. muahaha. me nabili naman kaming goodstuff. shet sarap, kaso nga lang nakakahilo pala pag matagal na.

pagbaba namin sa katipunan station eh napagdesisyunan na lang namin na maglakad na lang papuntang admu tutal eh ang dumi na namin, ano naman kung mag-alikabukan pa kami at mausukan? habang naglalakad, ayun tumaya pa kami sa lotto. malay mo lang manalo, edi puede na kaming.. ehehe.

di pa jan nagtatapos ang advencha. dumaan pa kami sa paboritong isawan place namin sa bayan. 11 isaw po at 1 dugo! hehehe. tutal eh madumi na kami sa panlabas, dumihan na rin ang loob! ahahaha. wala lang.

sobrang spontaneous fun lang talaga today. happiness. happiness.

my boyps ish da besht.

last monday, after spending the whole day reading ang compiling our CTK paper, jope and i went jogging sa sports center.
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c: mahina resistance ko eh.

(after 5 seconds...)

j: baka endurance.

c: ah yun nga. iniisip ko resistensya!

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tangina, tawa kami ng tawa pagkatapos. ang bobo kasi eh. hahaha.

ano ba tong ctk na to, nauubos ang brain cells ko. buti naman at tapos na. (uyy, naghahanap ng excuse sa booboo. )

i don't know if you'll ever get to read this at all, but i just want to say that i'm sorry.

i'm really sorry.

if there was one show that i followed religiously when i was in high school, it was dawson's creek. but then when they got to college, i didn't really get to watch anymore.

sa wakas, nalaman ko rin how it ended. i was bloghopping and got to rony's blog, he wrote an entry about it.

wah, naiyak ako. super fan ako ng joey-pacey love team at sobrang saya lang na waaaaaaaaaaaah! they ended up together! yay! such happiness.

here's what pacey said to joey when he was gonna let her go na (got this from rony's blog):

"... I also want for you to be happy, it's really important for me that you be happy. So i want you to be with someone, whether it be Dawson, or New York guy, or someone that you haven't even met yet but i want you to be with someone who can be a part of the life that you want for yourself. I want you to be with someone who makes you feel like I feel when I'm with you. So I guess the point of this long run on sentence that's been the last ten years of our lives is that the simple act of being in love with you is enough for me."

huwaa. taena. nakakapanlambot.
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mushy, but so what? mush is good.

he wrote me a letter! jope wrote me a letter for valentine's. awww.

see jope doesn't write love letters. it's just not his thing. we've been together seven months and he hasn't given me one at all. not even a short post-it note. but today he did.

mahaba yung sulat, pero akin na lang yon.

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jope, katulad ng sinabi mo, gusto ko lang rin ibulalas sa buong mundo, ang saya-saya ko, umiibig ako sa'yo. i'm holding your hand, and i won't let go. sure na ako, this is my final answer.

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tumawag kuya Jr ko kanina, niloloko ako. sabihin ko raw kay jope eh pag nagkita sila sisindakin daw niya. at sabihin ko raw eh wag akong papaiyakin kung ayaw niyang makalimutan niya ang pangalan niya. his way of telling me he loves me.

kuya jr, kung mabasa mo man to, no need to worry. i'm in good hands. puede mo na akong i-turn over.

congrats to my beloved bluerep friends for winning CAMPUS IDOL!

vica! champion! idol talaga kita! pamanahan mo naman ako ng boses mo!
jepoy! macky! shiets kayo, uber galing!

congrats din kay rony! ako kaya ang magpa-coach sayo, me pag-asa kaya ako? teka, miracleworker ka naman diba? hahahah

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sabi sa isang poster, if it's from *bleep* it must be good. (joke ba yun?)

ang totoo, if it's from BlueRep, it is 100% fresh, undiluted and pure, top of the line. it's not just good. it's the best.

pretty weird when you try to remember moments with people that have been part of your life for a long time and you can't remember anything.

i'm darn forgetful but i also have a videographic memory. yes, videographic because i tend to remember them in motion, not just like a photograph. im the kind of person who keeps vivid memories in her head.

lately i'm finding out that i have my own lacuna in my head. i can't remember things and events that at a certain point in my life, i chose to set aside. things and events that i've said goodbye to. so even if i try to remember them now, i can't seem to retrieve that certain bit of history. like the video was deleted from my system. i only see flashes, but i can barely put together how it was.

it's not that i regret anything. i guess i just don't like to dwell in the things that do not concern me anymore.

CTK defense
LS wac
LS personal strategy paper
PH103 orals
TH151 orals
PhilCinema paper
LS defense
COM14 presentation
FIL111 paper
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isang linggo na lang. nararamdaman ko na ang bakasyon.
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read this line from nicole's blog:
'It hurts so much when you realize that the guy you are in love with will never know that you exist, that there will be no chance for the two of you to be together.'

nung nabasa ko, unang reaksyon ko "awww. sad."

pero naisip ko, hindi yata ako agree diyan. kasi naniniwala ako na kaya ng taong gumawa ng mga pagkakataon. naniniwala ako na kung gusto mo talaga ang isang bagay (o tao), maraming paraan para makuha iyon. o mapalapit man lang doon.

if he doesn't know that you exist, find ways for him to notice. kung hindi ka kilala, edi magpakilala ka. you can't just give up and say there will never be a chance for you to be together. that's like me saying i don't want to eat veggies because they taste like grass when i haven't even tried eating grass. (okay, that may be a bit far-fetched, but you get the idea.)

conservative moms may not agree with me, but i really think that if you like someone, you should go for it. introduce yourself, get information, be available. mauna ka nang ngumiti, malay mo lang he'll smile back. lakasan lang ng loob yan. but make sure you don't do any desperate moves. make sure you don't look stupid in the end. small moves, little hints, don't give yourself away.

no such thing as no chance. talagang walang chance kung wala kang gagawin para magkaroon ng chance.

maniwala ka sakin, im not just talking cock here. it happened to me. it could happen to you.
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oh, and sometimes we tend to think na "naku, di naman ako papansinin nun. sino ba naman ako? he's way outa my league.." or whatever excuses that we say just because we're scared of rejection na inuunahan na natin agad. i say bullshit. tao rin sila, kumakain rin ng kanin. may insecurities rin ang mga mokong na yan. tao rin sila, hindi sila mga diyos.
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rax at aisa, para sa inyo to.
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sabi nga sa my sassy girl:
"know what fate is? building a bridge of chance for the one you love."

lucky, lucky, lucky

the past two days have been nothing but bliss for me. i was expecting hell, since the bulk of my finals week will be happening on those two days (2 orals, 3 papers) but like kylie minogue sings, i should be so lucky.

i'm especially happy about my orals for theo and philo. taking an oral exam is my waterloo. basta, it's something that i don't do well most of the time. add the fact that i tend to give answers straight out, like if i could say it in a sentence or two, i would. and that works to my disadvantage during oral exams. add that to the fact that i don't think in a very linear way so most of the time my thoughts are up in the air and i get what i can reach, like a kid jumping for goodies from a pabitin. anyhoo, i have come to a conclusion that oral exams are to some extent a matter of luck.

two reasons. for my philo orals, we were asked to pick one card and i got the king of clubs which entitled me to pick whatever thesis statement i want. so i picked the easiest one. i would have to say that my final orals in ph103 is the only orals when i could hear my voice louder than my heartbeat. eto na yung pinaka-kalmado ako and i knew what i was talking about. not the best though. so yun.

theo orals naman, i didn't really study at all. our orals was set at 830am thursday and i was supposed to study the night before but i fell asleep. i only had an hour to prepare for it. out of the 14 thesis statements, i was only able to read and sort of study 6. the others i wasn't even able to read so i didn't know what it was about. luck of lucks, i picked thesis number 7, which only asked about the course (th151), why we're studying it, and its connection with the ecological problem. you don't even have to study for that. grabe. lucky lucky.
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on a very important note, salamat gabriel marcel, father ferriols, at sir lagliva for teaching me to hope. as in hope ni gabriel marcel, as in hope na umaasa lang talaga.
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back to cuckooness. the AURA party was a success! congrats eely!

snippets from the evening:
~raxee and i eating dinner in ministop. tipid!
~galing ng riobossa, super! we couldn't stop raving about them.
~eira and the fashun show. naks.
~had henna done on my back, nilibre kasi ako ni pao ng half.
~galing ng la cucarasta. i was outside talking with the bluerep people when eely told me to get in, hottie daw yung vocalist ng la cucarasta. so we went in. such gwaponess nga when he's singing.

funny side kuento. so he was singing red wine and we were dancing to the reggae beats. i jokingly told pao to push me so i can dance with the vocalist guy, and he did! hehehe funny. so yun, i had my 5 minutes of fame (more like 30 seconds) dancing with the guy.

buti na lang di na ako mashado mahiyain sumayaw (salamat jope!).
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sing with me:

i should be so lucky, lucky, lucky lucky
i should be so lucky in love

yahoo! finally, i'm done with school. so long, suckaa!

have to admit though, when i finished typing the last few sentences of my last paper ever, i felt a bit senti. shet, no more school!

hay. happy happy. and it's my happy birthday too in two days.
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the mass here in the village sunday was very enriching. and that does not happen very often. mga once a year lang. and the priest, father silvio from mauritius gave us an assignment. he said that we should share the good news/gospel that we have received to at least one person this week. so in lieu of his request, im gonna share what he said.

the gospel was about jesus and the samaritan woman, a pretty gasgas reading na that sometimes we don't want to listen anymore. but he gave a very simple but very interesting homily about it.

take time. take time to talk to someone. take time to talk to a good friend, or to your neighbor that you've known for years but haven't had a real conversation with. take time to take things a bit slower and enjoy life. and also, take time to read a story in the bible. basta, the thing is, take time.

so there. i figured if i put it here, i can share it with more people. have a good day!